I really hope I'm wrong, but it has seemed short lived.

Ok, so my suspicions were right: She lost interest in me, She may not have "stopped caring" but the amount  sure as hell lessened, top it off with the fact that she told some random fucktard all of the negative things about me, yesterday was AWESOME!! Now I admit to myself that when I found about this douche I was concerned, especially after I heard Her talk to him. So what do I do, I contact him via Facebook to check him out and maybe let him know she's taken....and I totally lie and say she told me to contact him and add him ( wrong thing to do) and that shit hit the fan. Do I know how she found out exactly....No. What I do know is that he made her feel like shit ( on a sidenote, I really don't know much because when I ask about anything really specific She evades the question or just says " I don't wanna talk about it.", which is total Bullshit because if She was in my position She'd be questioning me like the Inquisition never died.) and knowing only the little that I do, I still feel justified in thinking that there's some universal Kharma and She got what she deserved. Maybe that will pass, but at the moment it's sittin' pretty strong in my mind.

So She calls me up after ripping my asshole out in texts earlier in the day telling me he reamed her out....I'm shocked. I totally thought that the conversation was basically going to be "  See ya, I found someone else."  instead of "He's a douche bag, Matt, I love you so much." that alone really threw me for a loop. So listening to all of this I start putting things together and I start to get hurt....when I hurt I get angry....I was extremely hurt, I mean for fuck's sake I cried myself to sleep last night over this fucking bullshit....and I normally don't cry. So I take it out on the one thing that I can focus all of this rage on..Her. I'm not proud of it, but there it is....God knows that I still love Her....I don't think I'll ever be able to stop...but right now.....I really wish I could.

I know things will work out just fine....how do I know? Lets just say that I've got some really good support in my corner.